Evening
I speak to G after a full day and a beautiful 'good morning' with him singing Wicked Games, Wonderwall, Romeo Juliet and more for me.
We talk. After 10 minutes he says, "I'll call you after dinner."
It is 20:00 hours then. After dinner means 23:00 hours.
I show attitude.
Cry without letting him know.
Get pissed.
Hang up on him.
Calls back.
Show attitude.
We hang up.
I cry.
G calls after his Maggie again in 15 minutes.
I give more attitude.
We fight.
I cry.
I give some more attitude.
I cry.
I now say what has upset me "I want to talk to you after a full day on a saturday and you still do not want to talk but watch your movie."
I cry.
We talk.
I cry.
I complain about crazy weird things.
I cry.
I talk shit about weight and his ex.
I cry.
He is hurt.
I cry.
I have hurt him.
So, I cry more.
I blabbered some more.
I cry.
Now, I do not remember.
But, I cry.
I have now reached to a psychotic level where I start viewing myself as some crazy lonely female who needs a shrink.
I cry.
I have bored him and put him to sleep.
I cry.
I taunt him for his inattentiveness now.
I cry.
I understand.
We wish each other 'good night'.
I make noodles for my cousin.
I cry.
I call G.
I cry.
"I just called to say 'I love you'"
I cry.
I switch to gmail.
Send him another weird mail.
I cry.
Come on blogspot.
I cry.
Finishing the post, and still crying.
I guess the hormonal changes after sex are acting up. Pimples, bloated stomach, eating unnecessarily alot and crying so much without any reason is proof enough.
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I have now reached to a psychotic level where I start viewing myself as some crazy lonely female who needs a shrink.
Trust me, I understand every word of this! hehe
I had a very bad crying session myself today.. he's like .. why are you being so weird !?!!?!??!?!
and i was like "forget it !!!!! " "nothing" "okay .. bye" more crying.
sometimes it's just hard to explain the exact reason of all the sadness.. and it seems like a task for them to understand
but we're lucky we have guys who still pamper us in spite of all that drama we do
heyya luscious,
i just got hooked to your style of writing and its awesome.I just wanted to add that things always have a way of working for the better in whatever case, so i'm sure whatever happens, " I cry ", wont be back for a long time !
I dedicate "The Script's - Together We Cry" to you...plz do download and hear it....
Dear di,
Extremly hard to explain the exact reasons, more so because we ourselves are unable to decipher it.
A million thanks to God for giving us guys who can take it, understand it and pamper it too.
Gratitude (without crying).
Kisses.
Dear Over the top,
Thank you for everything.
:)
Kisses.
Dear Kenneth,
I will.
Kisses.
Hey... happens after every fight. N i think i can't survive..
well written..
Dear J,
I guess. But this was not a fight.
Kisses.
weird .. :)
Dear Kaber,
Maybe.
Kisses.
lol what is this.....
fight or love
Love.
Kisses.
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